Grahame refused to accept treatment willingly and commented: "I was on a mission to starve myself to death. . . I was obsessed. " This culminated in several suicide bids. At the age of 12, she stole a packet of paracetamol from the hospital's supplies and swallowed 22 pills. Shortly after, her weight dropped so low that she fell into a coma and at one stage doctors predicted that she was minutes from death. Grahame was then force-fed via a tube that was stitched inside her stomach, but when she regained consciousness she continuously tried to remove the feeding apparatus. Grahame was eventually admitted to Rhodes Farm, an eating disorders clinic in Mill Hill, North London, and after six months she began showing signs of improvement. She commented: "I woke up one morning and thought, 'What are you doing to yourself?'" At the age of 16, she had increased her weight and was released from the clinic. She relapsed again, this time aged 18, and spent time in an adult eating disorder ward. In the process of overcoming her eating disorder, she developed obsessive-compulsive disorder (in her case involving a chronic fear of germs).